Its been two weeks since my last blog and in these two weeks God has continued to rock my existence. I keep getting shown more and more into who I am, and how to really rely on God, and in a way to be vulnerable I am going to allow you in to what has been going on.
So for about a month I had about $2.18 in my account and I didn’t have a job. I ran out of food and gas and really had no idea what I was going to do. I started to ask around to see if there were any food pantries around so I could get food, and bumming rides off of people. I have been in this situation a few times before, but this time was different. I got more frustrated at my situation than I ever have been before and really got frustrated with God. With so much growth happening and walking through all the pain I have held onto and letting go of it, this was the final straw if you will. I made the dicision to come to CGA on faith, and man was God going to show me what it really means to rely on him…..
This month was last month, and I did get a job. Right now though I am only working about 13 hours a week so I’m not making much money. I had to shut off my phone until my next paycheck (prayerfully), as well my car wouldn’t start and I got 2 flat tires…..haha its actually turning into more of a joke than anything..because I am finally starting to get it….
You can’t live in faith, if you never step out and live in faith. God has been showing me this in huge ways, and even though it is tough, I have never been more secure and confident in who Christ is! When lightning strikes it can cause huge damage, but if it strikes twice in the same place it will make glass that will make an amazing and beautiful creation. I feel like that has been happening, I just got hit for the second time and God is transforming me into something awesome.
I don’t write this as a pity party sort of thing, its more of this is what God is doing and it just shows how amazing he really is!! He is transforming me more and more into who he is and allowing me to walk through the hard stuff to know how to walk through the hard stuff. Gods love is amazing, and I really pray one day you can really know who he is more than anything in the world.
Thank you for your prayers and support, as always because of you these things have been able to happen, and I am seeing God how I was meant to see him!!!
